Make sure he has scars on the back of his hands, it’s a good sign he has experience either fighting or making things - creation is an act of selflessness and bruised knuckles are a good sign he knows how to defend himself. You’ve got too much soul to be handled by someone who has never been passionate. If he’s never thrown a punch, let him at least have tasted the insanity of bringing an idea into existence. Rough palms are better than soft ones, they have been salted by this earth and made into leather. Callouses are evidence he had lived, that he has broken skin and been in pain over and over and over again and still came back to the source of it.
Date a boy who makes you happy, but marry him only if he makes you laugh deep-belly rumbles that hurt your ribs as they expand outwards. Date him when he sees that you’re hurting and he gives you a moment to feel that pain like a handprint spreading across your consciousness, marry him only if he can make you smile even while you’re gross sobbing. The world is not a kind place. You will feel a lot of pain. Make sure you are with someone who makes it all bearable. Humor is an excellent gauge of intelligence. Life gets boring. Find someone who makes the banal interesting.
Seriously I don’t know if this makes sense to anybody but all I feel is alone.
The difference between you and me is that I was built for this shit! I’ve conquered my demons. I’ve been broke, paid, lied to, taken advantage of, cheated on, hungry and full. My name has been dragged through the mud more than once and every time I pick it up and wash it off! That’s why I’m self made. I came a long way and still have a long way to go.